*somehow*

Sometimes (often) I feel doubtful of my own creative abilities -- an especially frequent occurrence during my annual 'will I or won't I' nanowrimo debate in October. But I remind myself of things like:

"Bees can sense royalty."
(Jupiter Ascending)

"Somehow, Palpatine has returned."
(The Last Jedi)

"That's Rodney's whale friend."
(Stargate: Atlantis)

All of which were objectively ridiculous, but were media I enjoyed experiencing!

Star and I were talking about virtual work events this week, and I said I liked the cookie making better than the painting. Because it felt like the cookies didn't matter -- they were a neat byproduct, but whether they came out well or not wasn't important; I just had to worry about having an enjoyable experience during the class itself, and I was pretty sure I could do that. But with the painting, I felt like it was important that the painting came out well, and that was more stressful -- the goals of 'paint well' and 'enjoy the class' were in conflict, and I wasn't confident I could achieve the first one anyway.

So now I'm trying to figure out how to think about nanowrimo more like cookies and less like painting. (And maybe have bees in the story this year???)