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it's March!
Mar. 2nd, 2026 07:55 amIt has come to my attention (aka I spent some time thinking about it) that while I have tried to avoid making my job a huge part of my sense of self, I haven't really managed it. And also that 'being good at my job' and 'doing a good job at my job' are, uh, actually pretty big parts of what's been getting me through.
And now I've been given this different work, which I am not good at (because it's new, I do get that I'll get better at it eventually) and I'm not doing a good job at (because it's all on top of the previous work I was already doing).
It's been... not great.
Throwing myself at the work in an attempt to get good at it and meet the wildly unrealistic expectations isn't working, and -- let's be real, it's a corporate workplace -- would only lead to worse things even if I could do it in the short term.
So this morning I thought to myself, 'okay, so what can I do today (not work-related) that I can be good at?' Still working on an answer, but it seems like the right question for the moment.
And now I've been given this different work, which I am not good at (because it's new, I do get that I'll get better at it eventually) and I'm not doing a good job at (because it's all on top of the previous work I was already doing).
It's been... not great.
Throwing myself at the work in an attempt to get good at it and meet the wildly unrealistic expectations isn't working, and -- let's be real, it's a corporate workplace -- would only lead to worse things even if I could do it in the short term.
So this morning I thought to myself, 'okay, so what can I do today (not work-related) that I can be good at?' Still working on an answer, but it seems like the right question for the moment.
